Cash's first week

Aunt Katy
Aunt's Lindsey and Amber
Aunt Kate
sweet
Uncle Jon

Cash and I have been learning together how to feed him. NOT easy!! That has been the most frustrating thing...it took 8 days for my milk to "come in" so i thought Cash was starving. Oh no, the pediatrician said he's gaining too much weight. 2 oz a day since his first dr. visit? that must be a lot in baby terms. hopefully I don't overfeed him and he weighs 10 lbs on monday at his next checkup! I have had several cryfests over this baby. I know the hormones are all wacky right now but dang i didn't know i could cry like this. It's usually happy tears, just looking at my baby and i break down. it's the love i have for him, and these thoughts kinda run through my mind on a tape:

*"i can't believe you were IN me! it was this little foot here that was rolling around on my side!"

and

*"oh look at his little umbilical cord. that's the last evidence of us being connected..." (waaahhhh!)

yeah, stuff like that...

aside from crying, i have felt like a loser that has no clue how to take care of a baby. when do you put diaper rash stuff on? do i use powder? how do i give him a bath? thankfully my sister has been a nanny and knows how to care for newborns. she stayed with me all last sat. i'm ready for the day when i feel more like "me" again, when i feel like putting actual clothing on, and makeup. possibly take some pictures with my child? :O)